Saturday, November 29, 2008
heys peeps!today, there wun b any photosno colourful wordsjus me n my thoughtson my way home aft cell n aft serving in av for band practi was thinking of church stuffi admit, DISCUs cell not coming to support me for my dance concert really impacted me alotbecause to me, i put in so much effort for e concertn i thought, us being quite close, the way they'll show support for meis to attend my concertn i admitthat i was truly devastated when none came to support meand there was once, kayhowe was asking me, do i go to support the rest when they have concerts?n he was saying, mebbe its because we dun have e xi guan of gg to support others when they have concertsthats y they didnt attend mineso since then, i've been thinking abt it abitu know, its reali quite truedat our cell, isnt as bonded as we look likebecause deep dwn inside, we have a few "cliques"i know when we have cell, we always laugh tgt, learn tgt, share tgtbut, how many of us reali show e support for others when they need it?n how many of us r reali comfortable wif sharing all our difficulties to e whole cell?im sure, in one way or another, we've kept sth frm one anotherdidnt share it, because we felt that mebbe we werent dat close enough to understandso, y has cell become such a superficial thing?or, to phrase it in another way, r we truly bonded to one another?i dunno wad e rest of e cell thinks n feelsbut to me, cell is v impt to my spiritual growthbecause, without the support frm my bros n sis,i dun think i'll ever have e will to cont to grow n to b disciplined enoughe prayers, e laughters they bring, is truly great encouragementbut i guess, at times, i need more than jus laughters bahxi think wad im looking for, is reali a bunch of friends whom i can rely on to gif me support and strength whenever im wearyto see me for who i am n understand everitg inside of mei dunno if its possiblebut i do hope dat at the very least, we will grow to show more support for one anotherreally get to know one another better, n to b able to share more wif one another:)i guess i'll cont to pray to Godn ask Him to help our cell bond tgtn reali cont to grow n shine for Him :Dn there's one other thing i reali dun understandmy dad keep askin me to go to templewhen he obviously knows dat i believe in God nwso im wondering, if e person is there, but the heart is not there,does e purpose still hold?is he hoping dat one day, i'll have a chg of heart?i dunno, but sometimes, i reali dun understand wad he's tryin to doowellsn dun worri abt it
i appreciate everitg u've done for me.
reali :) frm e bottomest of my heart.
even though at times i might not remb everitg
but do know dat every small effort u put in, i know it.
